Friend?

as you know people, friends or without "s" means everything, sometimes i just wondering, how happy people who had a friend.. they go to cinemas together, laugh,love,conflict they feel it together and more interesting moment like buy ice cream, buy dolls, buy everything they want together.. don't know why, until now i don't really have people that i can call "friend". i don't believe people who call her soulmate "best friend" because it just sounds bullshit.. maybe i am a weirdo, its quite hard, to find someone that a lil weird like me....... who laugh at my joke, i easily gets iritated with people who talk with loud voice. (pardon my english :'p)